margaux: Princess Boo

Copied & Pasted from my facebook note that I wrote yesterday...

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Last Night's/This Morning's Fun and Sadness

It's so strange the way life works out.

Last night I had one of the funnest nights out in a while. Surrounded by good people, dancing, singing, laughing our asses off. Everyone was just omitting the TONIGHT WE'RE GONNA HAVE FUN vibe. And when I say everyone I mean EVERYONE. Good times indeed. It was great too because I hadn't slept the night before except for a couple hours at most. I was thinking that once I got in the club I just might knock out. I've done it before. Two times even, I think? Anyhow, you get the point. The club last night was great.

Then I got home. Silly came in to use the rest room and on her way out, I locked the front gate. I was still tipsy. I looked down at Princess and she seemed too lethargic. I noticed she had thrown up twice - a good deal of food. And she didn't even touch the food I had given her earlier. So I sat down in front of her and talked - I talk a lot to dogs. Her especially though because she's a very intuitive and sensitive dog. One time, back in the Bay, I was home by myself bawling my eyes out (over some serious stuff) and she came in my room and just sat next to me. She knew I needed someone around. Anyway, I noticed her breathing was off. She was like gasping for air. So I started to worry a lot. I hit up Layla and told her she wasn't feeling well at all. Then I tried to diagnose her online but everything said bring her to the vet. Home alone with no car and it being 5AM, there was nothing I could DO. So I sat outside with her and prayed and tried to convince her to stay strong because something was telling me she didn't have long. She was trying. Then she just stopped breathing. Her eyes were still open. My mom said that supposedly people who die with their eyes open are waiting for someone. I figured she was waiting to see the rest of the family.

I went from being high off life, having fun with great people to losing a very dear part of my family in a matter of minutes. I'd never sobered up that quick before.

I know you're in Doggy Heaven now Princess. I love you and miss you already. Thanks for being there for me, knowing not to lick me on my face because I'm allergic but drooling everywhere else and just being a great dog.